R.O.J.A.K feelings

in any way.

somehow, i feel humilliated, insulted and uninvited.

and i feel small...

really2 small.

GOD! im exhausted.

*** at least i still have FAITH (unlike others).

i hate you already

i thought you were dead.
what happened to you all this while?
why suddenly, you re-appeared?
and why you still cant find your brain?

dont tell me you are that stupid.
are you?
oh! forget it!

i should never met you before.
and we should never know each other.
i hate the fact that you used to be part of my life.
YOU STUPID MORON!

p/s: this is meant for him only. (SMH aka Z)
p/s: i know i used bad words in this entry but i cant help it.
i just cant help it!!!!!!!
im so mad with him and myself right now!!!

sometimes, i wish...

nevermind. my wish is not important anymore.

hah! im stuck in here...

OK.
i certainly did arrived here earlier than them.
but, right now.
Dr. Azlinor is having Civil Procedure 2 class in the computer lab.

i know i should be get going.
duh~
but, im in the middle of something now. (blogging, facebooking, YMing and bla bla bla)
PLUS, i dont have any place to go right now.

where to?
cafe? (dah mkn)
library (sekejap sgt)

and PLUS.
its not that im going to make noise in here. (alamak! silent hp maa!! seb baik igt!)
and its good for me kan?
to learn CP2 while im doing my thing (haha)

hope she wont mind.
hope she wont mind im sitting here. at the left corner of the lab.
and writing this entry.
im going to post it NOW.
seriously.

facebook thingy

People always have reasons for everything. So do I.
There are also lots of reasons for me when I choose not to add certain people or groups of people in Facebook.
I don’t like them. That’s all.
I may not like them or hate them and they will never know it.
It’s all on me. And people shouldn’t be bothered to ask me:
“eh, asal x approve aku lagi??” or
“weh, asal x conteng wall aku?” (Sometimes I need to approve their friend request just to make them satisfied).
You really wanna know why?Because you annoyed me

I don’t want to be your friend at first place.
No. what I mean, I don’t want you to be my friend (at least in Facebook).
Because, I regard Facebook as a place where I can connect with my friends, long lost friends, childhood sweetheart, crush, secret admirer and not to mention new people who are worth knowing.

In other words, people whom I would be comfortable with. So that, no matter whatever craps I put on my wall, status, stupid + ugly photos, applications, they wouldn’t bother.

Why am I babbling today?
It is certainly because I’m annoyed.
With these people.

But nevermind, don’t bother!

talk2 kosong

aha.

today is already thursday and tomorrow should be..FRIDAY!!

yeay!! the day i've waited for the whole week. *sigh*

what a busy world?

can i just escape from all these thingy and go lepaking with my friends?

and watch upin&ipin? (everyone is talking about that movie and of course im a big fan of that cute lil' twin)

right now, i wish i could go back to PENANG and have a nice plate of nasi kandaq (lauk teloq sotong besh woo! tp mahal siot), penang char koey teow, laksa pokok ketapang (yes!yes!), cendol pulut, ais kacang, mee udang @ Teluk Kumbaq, bihun sup @Pasar mlm RAbu dpn rumah and bla bla bla...(the list goes on and on..)

u see?

im a good eater. i eat almost everything. be it Kelantanese foods (i eat budu ok!), cencalok, sambal tempoyak, tempe or even Italian foods and also sushi. hah. im universal.

*sambil meneguk air liur yang tersekat dari memula tulis entry nie..

thumbs up for street art!

I got so many times to browse through Internet. No. That’s not true. I’m just being lazy and not finishing my works. That’s how I got those free times. Whatever.

Recently, while browsing through my Friendster profile, I’ve found 1 profile which really caught my eyes. Hey! This guy got lots of photos and guess what? I’ve opened each and every photo albums of his. (Gigih sangat aku ni)

Damn! This guy is soo damn gifted and talented artist! Seriously, I’ve never encountered any artist like him (ramai sgt ke artisan yg aku jupe) Memang ada tapi aku yang tak pernah jumpa. Heh.

And coincidently, we’re from the same hometown (Balik Pulau gituu) and from the same primary school, Sekolah Kebangsaan Genting. (Now I know why he looks so familiar). He’s a year older than me. Ha. Aku memang kagum and memang rajin aku bukak page dia sbb nak ushar his artworks.

Enuff said. Check this out and enjoy it.
http://www.spacemaggot.deviantart.com/
http://www.eightyfourcube.com/
http://www.acituvwxyz.blogspot.com/

*Noted that this guy is so damn funny tahap sengal.
Just imagine, dia ada gambaq GABAN? Cita masa kecik2 dulu.

P/S: Tiba2 aku rasa street art ni sangat lah cool and really2 beautiful.

trbg tggi

Saya ingin terbang
Seperti burung dan hinggap di jendela
Supaya saya dapat lihat wajah-wajah kesayangan saya
Bila-bila masa saya suka…

Saya ingin terbang
Seperti burung dan merentasi bandar-bandar itu
Supaya saya dapat melelapkan mata
Di samping keluarga tercinta

Saya ingin terbang
Ke masa lalu
Supaya saya dapat mengucapkan ayat2 itu
“Saya sayang kamu…”

I wish i had that conversation..

My Mum,
I wish I had that conversation (when she called me last night) and told her;
“Mak, sok nak bertolak pukul bpa? Jgn lupa bwk camera tau? Atun nak pinjam..”

My Bro,
I wish I had told him to feed the cats everyday or whenever he is home. But don’t give them too much fishes and friskies. Obesity will cause them a lot of trouble.

My friend, Jantumahbebeh (bukan nama sebenar)
I wish I had that conversation with her on YM.
“Wei, aku ada hot story ni. Hang tau tak si XXX nak kawin??”

My sister,
I wish I had that conversation, when we were out for dinner last week.
“Alaa akak, aku sebenarnya rasa mcm nak amek tudung ni terus kat aku. Hang bagi ke?”

My lecturer,
I wish I had that conversation with him, after the class this morning.
“Sir, can I do the test earlier than the date fixed? I already got 2 tests on the same week. But nevermind laah..”

Mamat yang keja @ maxis, Alpha Angle.
I wish I had that conversation, when I gave him RM30 to topup my hp credit. That guy yang bijaksana tu only key-in RM10 and soon after he realized it, he added another RM20. But the air time period still remains 20 days, instead of 30. ler…
“Weh bangang! Aku topup 30 sebab aku nk pakai sebulan la..”

My friend, Ayu (nama sebenar),
I wish I had that conversation, when Cikzarazul called her last week.
“Wehh wayuu, dinner kami nnt bukan kat Carcosa la. Saja ja aritu aku tipu ang. And yeah! Your stuffs are safe in the mahallah store right now. You may come whenever you like to collect it or just let it buried there..”

A bapok I know,
I wish I had that conversation, when he/she tapped keyboard next to me in Computer lab. He said, “hye U” to me. Huh! Just like another occasion pun.
“Weh! Ko jangan nak belagak stylo dgn aku la. Ko tu jadik laki lagi baik. Jadi pompuan pon bukannya lawa . Buruk lagi ade la..”

A friend (jauh di mata dan jauh di hati)
I wish I had that conversation with him when I saw him after class.
“Weh! Stop depending on us! Be a MAN!! Stop acting like KAKAK! Ni, aku yg jadi abang. Toksah dok makan gaji buta laa! Enuff said…”

My ex-bf,
I wish I had that conversation with him (whenever I can..no phone call, sms, etc..)
“Kemain ko skrg ek? Belagak! Ko dah jadi lawyer terkemuka ke?mesti dah kaya kan? Ke dah jadi penyanyi? Tau la muka cam artis..” Duhh..

Guy yang aku minat (Cikzarazul tau sape)
I wish I had that conversation when I bumped into him at café last week. He was with his 2 friends. Heeeehe..
“Hi..emmm..ni no fon saya.. 017-6**06## “
Pastu kiss pipi dia dan lari masuk bawah meja.

But, those words remain unspoken…

i want u all over me

Tahun 2009 ini, saya telah kehabisan perfume. Setelah sekian lama perfume Heiress by Paris Hilton menjadi semburan harian saya. Akhirnya tiba juga detik2 yang ditunggu setelah semburan terakhir hanya mengeluarkan bunyi..pssssttt…psst.. Tiada aroma wangi yang keluar. Angin je lebih. Maka botol tue pun diwartakan sebagai warisan kesenian saya di bilik tidur.

Errmm.. macam mana ya? Boleh ka hidup tanpa perfume? Mungkin boleh (sebab saya tidak mempunyai masalah bau badan) tapi, still rasa tak selamat. Kan? Risau busuk. Deodorant? Its for underarms only. So, setelah tiada pilihan dan untuk selamat, saya kembali mengenakan pewangi BodyShop Rougeberry saya. Haruman tersebut adalah hadiah hari jadi saya 2 tahun lalu. Saya suka bau tu tapi ianya mengingatkan kembali beberapa memori yang tak beberapa best. *sigh… tapi disebabkan terdesak, saya belasah je laa.

But, still tak puas hati kan? Sungguh saya memang appreciate hadiah tu tapi memori tersebut tidak best untuk dikenang. Membangkitkan sebuah feeling yang… HAISHH!!! Tak best la kesimpulannya. Plus, saya telah menghidu satu haruman yang amatlah ME… iaitu perfume L by LAMB (Gwen Stefanie). Dan owh! Bau nya memang tersangatlah harum, irresistible, incredible, fabulous and just soo …its TOTALLY ME la… tapi?? The problem is, as usual…RM..RM..RM..RM..

Namun, pada hari beli-belah di SOGO bersama Cikzarazul, saya telah melawat kaunter LAMB for a million times. Kali ni apa nak jadi pun jadila. Lalu, setelah menarik nafas panjang dan yakin dengan pilihan yang telah dipersetujui oleh Cikzarazul + bengang dengan *bapok ayam yang jaga kaunter tu, saya telah menyambar haruman tersebut dari tangan bapok tersebut. Yes! Yes!
Kini saya rasa saya kembali wangi dan sudah tidak menghiraukan haruman BodyShop tersebut..(say Goodbye to that old memories…)

* Saya bukanlah anti-bapok, pondan or whatsoever tapi bapok yang terlibat sangat menjengkelkan hati saya dan wajar di carut. Tapi saya tahan kan hati saya ini.

Just like another day.. playing with words

Attempt #1:
Ok! This is the time. This is my 1st attempt to create a new blog,
so it supposed to be ___. hurm..

Attempt #2:
HI! This is my first entry..my blog is basically known as...$h*#! (Damn. no idea...what should i name it?)

Attempt #3:(hope i can make it this time)
Assalamualaikum WBT. (its getting better ryte?)
Hye! As this is my first entry, this would basically be the introduction of this blog. This blog is owned by ME, Hidayatul Manna.. (err,,is it ok to put my name here? Would it later on amount to defamation? ) Well, the purpose for having this blog is xxxxxxxxx who cares? As long as I write whatever crap I want and post it online, it still be called a blog, right?
*sigh*

FULL ENTRY: Whenever I feel like writing……=p